Completing this assignment today was quite the learning experience.
I discovered quite quickly that I find it difficult to assess myself beyond the experiences of the day. I had an awful day, and one specific moment in which I did not respond well. I know that moment doesn’t define me, and is not typical of my behaviour, but I struggled to rate myself above that regrettable action.
I learned that those closest to me know me best, and I cannot wear masks with them. Co-workers rated me high on self-confidence and self-assurance; relatives and friends rated me lower. Which tells me that I am a good actress. I am not sure yet if this is a good quality, or not so good.
I also learned that my self-assessment is congruent with others on the traits that relate to my internal drivers, but there were discrepancies on the more relational traits (empathic, friendly, etc). Though I am not happy that others rated me lower on these, I am happy that I am now aware: the truth about me will set me free. This journey of change will likely be difficult, but I am excited to set my foot out the door.
I’m sorry you had a rotten day and I hope that this coming week is better for you! I really appreciated your vulnerability and courage in sharing your experience and how it affected you. Definitely something that we all can relate to! I also really admired your attitude towards your interpretation of your questionnaire scores and how you were going to take the discrepancies in the scores and use them as a starting place to grow. I found your approach to be really inspiring!