The Weight of False Identity, 2021

Riley Wiebe

The Weight of False Identity, 2021

Graphite & charcoal on paper

22” x 30”

Who do I want to be? A question we often ask ourselves but use the wrong means to answer.

The Weight of False Identity is a piece that demonstrates the frailty of self-given value. If I search for identity in talent and success, it will also be found in failure. When I present something spotless and ingenious, I am proud of myself; happy to be me. But as soon as I’m late, flustered, and falling apart, such will be my identity.

I built my headpiece from items often found on the floor in my room because messiness is a form of failure that I often find shame in. I find that my internal dialogue labels myself as “failure, loser, messy, cannot stay clean, out of control and lazy.” This headpiece was literally heavy to wear for the reference photo. That weight symbolizes the weight of failure that I feel defines me. Lasting meaning cannot derive from human labels, wins and possessions because the status these things bring simply doesn’t last. This piece shows the heaviness that results when I search for identity in success but continue to fail.

The Weight of False Identity is meant to challenge the viewer to think of a new source of identity that is stable and uplifting. I find that assurance when I believe I am defined by my Creator. God says I’m beloved no matter what I succeed at, fail, possess, enjoy or who I associate with.

Jesus says: “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matt. 11:28-30)

Below you can watch my creative process and see the final piece in the gallery!